This morning was the FIRST time I left my precious daughter in the care of someone else other than her grandparents.
Ok it was probably only for 25 minutes (the time it would take for KY to send me to work and fly back home) but for this control freak paranoid mother, that's a painful 25 minutes not being able to keep a hawk eye on the little one and our new helper who is minding her.
I was also wrought with worry about what would happen if, the minute we step out of the door, Janine wakes up and finds not only her mommy, but her papa missing as well?? Will she feel abandoned? Even more insecure? Will she bawl her head off and be inconsolable until one of us comes back? Will such a behaviour frazzle our helper and drive her to do things to Janine out of desperation??? Eeeeps!!
Even though every step away from the front door got easier, I was still feeling a tad angsty and oh so helpless. Talk about having to cast your cares on Him and trust Him to take charge of the whole situation! That was the ONLY thing I could do as sat in the car on the way to work.
Well, THANK GOD the little girl slept peacefully right through until her Papa returned home. This anxious mother can breathe easier as her trust in God grows a little stronger ;o)
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